Friday, November 14, 2008

k-brow: in between days

They say that this time between Samhain and Yule is the "time between time", and that the veil that separates the world of the dead and the living hasn't quite thickened fully. It's supposed to be a quiet time, and in other places, I guess, it's the long march into Serious Winter. Here in the islands, it is fitting that it would be voggy now, adding to the feeling of quiet and "not quite rightness" that seems to be hanging over. Reyaasked in a comment about vog. Vog is volcanic emissions, from Kilauea volcano over on the Big Island. When our winds are blowing as trade winds (forgive me, I don't know the direction) the vog blows away from us. When the wind shifts or dies down, the vog comes over to Oahu and gives everything a soft grey haze.

I've been sick, my usual sinusthroatlungthing that has me taking 2 days off from work. I haven't felt well, but I do admit, it's been rather a treat to hide in the house, when the rest of the world is out working, and just drink tea and listen to music. I've slept a lot, so much, that I'm tired of sleeping now. I'm pretty much on the mend, though I shudder to think of how much my classroom has run awry in my absence. I've been doing a little knitting. I abandoned the endless stockinette march of Icarus for awhile, to concentrate on the aran of the Must Have Cardigan. Found a mistake, a miscrossed cable and a hiding dropped stitch which triggered a great ripping of one of the completed side pieces, halfway down. I don't know where my head was at with that cable. Thought about leaving it in, but realized that since it was a front piece, it would always bother me. 'Twas the traveling cable, as well, so I had no idea how to just rip down a part of it. So rip, rip, rip. I have re-knit it completely, though, in my little retreat from the world, and in the process, learned a few more things about readng my knitting. So it's not a sad thing at all.

My commitment to only work on UFO's til most (note, I've changed "all" to "most") are off the needles is making for boring toil, but on the other hand, it feels constructive, too. Like it's an appropriate thing to do in the time between times. It's times like these, though, that I feel like I need to stay off the blogs, because there are those knitters out there that produce a firestorm of finished objects, inspiring me to cast on for new projects, and invariably feeding into the whole product-oriented dissatisfaction with my craft.

I can't blog without saying some things about our now-passed presidential election. Interestingly, I think it's post-election peace that has contributed to the time-between-times feeling, too. Letting go of my political addiction is hard; it's now rolled over into the endless Obama fascination. I am thrilled, needless to say, with the results, and not sure what to make of the feeling of a great weight being lifted from my heart. In the days following the election, however, I found my inbox bombarded with mean-spirited jokes and forwards from the more conservative end of my family. I shared this with my sis, who said she'd gotten some stuff from friends, as well, that were just plain offensive. I emailed a cousin, asked him to stop, though, of course, I did it none too gracefully (that's always my flaw, to take it til I can't stand it anymore and then explode) and was met with an angry political defense about "right" and "wrong" and "you will see in time..." Now, silence. But I don't understand this need of people to backlash against the results of an election that was so clear - not a tie, not one that went to the courts. Are people afraid? And what good does fear do one, in this situation? To amp up that adrenaline, over political position, and unseen results of an administration change is useless. My own hopes are high, and happy, but I've learned, after 2 previous presidential elections, that it's best to keep on keeping on, when you feel your position wasn't represented in the election. I was just surprised at the vitriol. I just marvel at my family, sometimes.

My dad and I were talking a bit, last night, about the current financial crisis in the country, and he said he thought it had folk extra-excited, as well. He shared being really offended when folk referred to it as a "depression". The old man lived through the Great Depression, and has some harsh words for people, on the subject of these times, particularly with regards to the pervasive aura of fear and consumerism that has gripped the culture in the past few years. He is also philosophical about Obama's election; I imagine he voted McCain, but has decided to keep on keeping on, with the current results. Me? I'm just glad about the potential for change, an Obama presidency and being on good terms with my father, with whom I had so many contentious years of conflict.

Two members of my household are curious about something. Nice to see them working together on anything besides the competition for my attention.


Reya Mellicker said...

Vog ... thanks, yeah I remember that stuff from my one trip to the islands.

As for the divisive haters, hmmm ... I think the new atmosphere in this country (and around the world) is going to make it a little bit harder to radiate that icky Karl Rove energy. Hard times ahead may also squelch the urge to bitch as much as some folks are. I think Obama is a beacon of some kind, or a crystalizing force that focuses healing energy and then sends it outwards. Loved his acceptance speech - in fact I cried like a baby.

Thanks for your thoughts.

Hey - hope you're soon feeling better, but yes DO enjoy a break from all the chaos of the classroom.

OH and YES about the "time between" being magnified by the post election energy, oh yeah. Thanks for naming that. I felt it but didn't have the language to understand.

Sending love in your direction,

KimS said...

Hey there! I've gotten my share of vitriol/idiocy from our conservative friends and family... I get dumbfounded or outraged, but then usually remember all the "move to Canada" threats and hateful comments that came from the left during the Bush years. Nobody likes to feel like their views have been shunted aside, I guess. These have been nasty political times. Sure would be nice if Obama had the ability to pull us all together. (But then they'd claim he's the antichrist, I'm sure, as he's supposed to bring peace to the nations. Whatevah.)

I agree with Noro not counting as stash. I bought four skeins this summer and have only used one. I love it so much I can't think of any project worthy of its beauty. I thought I'd be knitting my laptop a felted cover w/ it, but now I'm talking myself out of even that.

Barbara said...

Nice talking to you the other day. I'm glad you are feeling better! I admire your resolve in finishing UFO's! That pesky would have kept whining if you left it in. Hope to see you soon.

Moon said...

You know what they say, you can pick your friends but not your relatives.
Im glad you let em' have it though...some people really just need a swift kick up the ol' ass.
By the way, your waffles look soooooooooooo freakin yummy.
Im drooling.